That's the damage after 2 weeks of eating with reckless abandon. Though honestly the first few days of vacation I was being somewhat careful. I did have a wedding dress to fit into after all. But once that was over,it was ALL over. I'm slightly embarrassed at my feeding frenzy tendencies but there's nothing I can do about it now but move forward. I had the best vacation of my life and I certainly don't regret that.
I will move forward cognizant that it is a very slippery slope once start to loosen my already liberal reins of "healthy" eating.
And so it begins again.
Today I will be controlled and conscious in my eating.
Today I will get at least 30 mins of exercise, despite this depressing rain.
Today I will finally fully unpack.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
mspetite becomes a mrs.
Proof you don't have to be at goal weight to have the best day of your life :)
Saturday, March 05, 2011
no proof
i did it! i broke the 180 lb. barrier before my trip! just barely though at 179.8. i wanted to record this occasion with a photograph, but when i stepped back on the scale with my camera...i was back over 180! LOL! guess you'll just have to take my word for it.
Friday, March 04, 2011
i don't know how they do it
i am the kind of person who can't drink a cup of coffee because the caffeine makes my heart flutter like crazy. so i don't know how in the world people can stand taking speed or diet pills.
i took a claritin-d today and holy mary mother of god i feel crazy. i can't stop drinking water and i have absolutely no appetite. you'd think it'd be a good thing, but my body feels so far from normal it's creepy.
i took a claritin-d today and holy mary mother of god i feel crazy. i can't stop drinking water and i have absolutely no appetite. you'd think it'd be a good thing, but my body feels so far from normal it's creepy.
Thursday, March 03, 2011
motivation
getting dressed for work in the morning has been such a pain in the ass the past year. my weight slowly but surely crept up and i was down to 1 pair of black slacks, 1 pair of grey slacks with one pant leg longer than the other (one of the hems fell), and 1 pair of long taupe slacks that i've been hemming with tape. a few months ago, the friction of my thighs had worn a hole in the only pair of jeans i fit into. so i bought a bigger pair (sigh). i've supplemented this atrocious line up with leggings (!!!) worn with tunics and such.
needless to say, i've been a hot mess.
but i've noticed in the last few weeks that my pants have been getting too big. and not just the ones that i bought a little bit big to begin with. every current pair of slacks that i've worn to get me through the year is too big.
huzzah!
i unearthed a couple pairs of smaller pants, but for the most part they all need hemming too. i never wanted to invest in professionally hemming a pair of pants in a size i didn't want to be in for very long. hence the ghetto tape.
but lately, i've been dressing up my leggings 'cause they're the only things that fit. and today they fit even better. no muffin top! i could wear them with a silky top that skimmed my redefined curves and whoa! stopped patrick in his tracks. he gushed and leered and blathered helplessly.
felt. frickin'. awesome.
though it was a little ridiculous because when i met him i was 15 pounds lighter than i am now. i guess it's just been awhile since i've felt any confidence in my body.
i felt really powerful.
i've lost 13.5 in the last 6 weeks. and i am strongly resisting the urge to not feel happy until i lose it all. so yes, i am still obese, but i'm still workin' it! :)
needless to say, i've been a hot mess.
but i've noticed in the last few weeks that my pants have been getting too big. and not just the ones that i bought a little bit big to begin with. every current pair of slacks that i've worn to get me through the year is too big.
huzzah!
i unearthed a couple pairs of smaller pants, but for the most part they all need hemming too. i never wanted to invest in professionally hemming a pair of pants in a size i didn't want to be in for very long. hence the ghetto tape.
but lately, i've been dressing up my leggings 'cause they're the only things that fit. and today they fit even better. no muffin top! i could wear them with a silky top that skimmed my redefined curves and whoa! stopped patrick in his tracks. he gushed and leered and blathered helplessly.
felt. frickin'. awesome.
though it was a little ridiculous because when i met him i was 15 pounds lighter than i am now. i guess it's just been awhile since i've felt any confidence in my body.
i felt really powerful.
i've lost 13.5 in the last 6 weeks. and i am strongly resisting the urge to not feel happy until i lose it all. so yes, i am still obese, but i'm still workin' it! :)
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
naked weigh-in: week 6
2/22: 185.4
2/23: 183.5
2/24: 183.5
2/25: 183.5
2/26: 183.5
2/27: 183.5
2/28: 183.2
net week: -1.8
net total: -10.3
ave week: 183.8
praise jebus, the bloat is over.
so far, monday and tuesday have been great with eating. i made my meals for the week on sunday night, so i'm pretty set. i got a 3 mile walk in on both days. i wish i had gotten more, though. as much as i sometimes hate all the time i spend on the bus commuting, it does force me to get in an additional 3.5 miles of walking in everyday. but this week i'm driving to work so i can spend more time in the office or at home preparing for our trip next week. all in all, this arrangement keeps stress levels down which i think is most important :)
my weight today is actually down to 181.6, so maybe, just maybe, i can squeak in under 180 by sunday. at this point it's totally trivial, and i have bigger things to worry about, but i can't say the thought still doesn't cross my mind.
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