i don't think it's coincidence that...
...the month patrick loses all patience for living at my parents' house, i get a new job that makes it possible for us to afford it.
...after a few months of being creatively bored at that job, i get an offer at a new job that i had been eying for months, even if it is only part-time.
...the week my freelancing extra money gig ended, my full time status at the new job started.
...the month patrick's unemployment runs out, he gets a part-time job.
...when we expect one expense to increase, another decreases.
...the amount in our savings account is enough to cover our destination elopement and a modest emergency fund.
...i contact the travel agent we spoke to over a year ago just in time to qualify for a 50% off promotion for the resort we want.
...the time i really decide i need to start working out again, i get a generous gift card for a bootcamp class from a friend AND an offer for a free 3 month gym membership. that's 4 months of free workout resources.
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i know i've been stressed, super stressed about money and how everything will work out. but i look at how things have unfolded and i can't help but feel utterly grateful and blessed and humbled. here i am, this teeny tiny mortal trying so desperately to keep everything together when honestly stronger forces are out there keeping an eye on me. on us.
not that i'll ever stop worrying or working. because i believe that god helps those who help themselves. but i'm hoping that i can learn to be more cognizant of my blessings on a more regular basis. maybe then i can worry less and feel happier overall.
