half a size

this morning, the scale read a full 5 pounds less than it did on sunday. maybe it was all in my head but my workout did seem a little easier.

davis arboretum

pain in the beck

i am doing something seriously wrong because whenever i swim i get a stiff neck. a painful, no sudden movements kinda stiff neck.

makes doing the easiest, smallest tasks excrutiatingly painful. even blogging.

gah!

i'm a happy panda

1. got up at 5:30 for a morning workout.
2. found out that "running" 14 minute miles is slow, but still rewarding.
3. made some bomb ass turkey sausage spaghetti sauce without a recipe.
4. devoured the chickpea flat bread i made this weekend.
5. solidified plans with a friend coming into town for a visit this weekend.
6. found out the interest rate on my student loans dropped.
7. spent some quality time in the pool, churning out laps.

we found our hearts in san francisco

it's been said that san francisco is the most romantic city in the u.s. the city will always be dear to my heart because it's where we fell in love.

my cousin, though not a professional photographer, has taken amazing photos all over the world. she has a great eye and we share the same aesthetic so i asked her to take some engagement photos for patrick and me. for the amazing price of free, she snapped about 250 photos of us all over the city. here are some of the preliminary shots!

the painted ladies

clarion alley, mission district

fort point, under the golden gate bridge

fort point, under the golden gate

fort point, under the golden gate

atop fort point, under the golden gate

chrissy field

the marina

palace of fine arts

steps to coit tower

russian hill

i have decided that the reason for my general unhappiness stems from things out of my control. i have also decided that a lot of life is about timing. and there's no sense in worrying about things that don't need to be worried about yet, because they might just work themselves out.

so, i'm going to stop trying to "fix" a million an one problems that haven't even materialized yet, and focus on one problem that is staring me right in the face: my fitness.

16:55, 15:31, 15:32=47:59, of which probably 6:00 was actual running. i know physically i could have pushed myself more, but mentally, i'm not all there. it takes a while for physically beating to feel good again, right?

my feet are happy, though, 'cause i traded in the bad ones for another pair of brooks adrenaline gts. i think those are the ones i ran my marathon with. why i ever abandoned them i'll never know. probably had something to do with a tall, dark, nubile shoe salesman.

and as an aside, while i was being fitted for my new shoes, i overhead the co-owner of the shop talking about her pending divorce from her husband who runs the shop with her. and for some reason i was really taken aback. normally, i find her very annoying. she has this high pitched voice and dry overprocessed blonde hair, (and is in enviably good shape, which is probably more the reason she annoys me. but whatever). even though she has 0% bodyfat, her marriage crumbled. and i felt bad for her. and i think i was just so shocked because you forget that bad things happen to even 0% body fat people. my body sure isn't perfect, but i'm glad my love is.

destination wedding

we're getting married here! summer 2011.

and finally after arguing about it for months, we have decided on our guest list. i am very happy to report that all the family i wanted included are invited. and it is a huge relief to me. it is the first time since the whole wedding talk that i've finally gotten excited about planning. we have gone to a couple family parties since our engagement and i just couldn't get excited about telling people our plans since 1. it excluded them and 2. i couldn't imagine my wedding without them. but we no longer have that problem!

so what happened? apparently, sg got to talking to a friend of his that also recently got engaged, and this friend of his (without me even saying anything to him) basically told sg that the wedding is and always has been about the bride. and that nothing is really worth forgoing my happiness on the one day that has meant everything to me since the day i was born, apparently. and while i don't necesarily agree with him 100%, i'll take it :)

the wedding is 2 years away, so there's not much to do now exactly. we're getting engagements photos done in sf this weekend and with those i'm hoping to send out save the dates. or more aptly, 'save the funds'. it may take some people 2 years to save up for a trip to the dominican republic. it sure as heck will take us 2 years to save up for the wedding.

it's been a busy summer and lately none of it has to do with running or working out. lots of family things, vacations, and mini-vacations. and i've been in a weird head-space lately as indicated by my last post. don't know when i'm gonna snap out of it. but for the most part, things are coming along.

stale

the title isn't very inviting, i'll admit. but it's kinda where my head's at. for a while now, i've been feeling so very uninspired. and restless.

i'm so sick of waiting to hear about what the hell is going to happen with patrick's job offer. until something does happen, we're stuck. in my parents' house. in my unfulfilling job. in this boring suburban town. it's driving me mad. i'm clawing at the walls trying to get out.

i'm ready to be making some real money, doing work i love, in a town with lots going on. i'm ready to make a home and start a future with my new sweetie.

i am so very sick of this place called limbo.