dudes. i just signed up for my first race in far too long. i'm 'doing' a 5k turkey trot this year. yes i'm going to walk it, but damnit isn't that where we all start?
'cause i'm tired of feeling fat. i'm tired of feeling lazy. and i'm tired of talking about the days i used to run.
also, that saturday, i'm trying on wedding dresses.
because i'm getting married on a tropical island in 4 months.
i seriously need to get my ass in gear.
i'm tired of excuses. i'm tired of being tired. i'm tired of feeling out of control and depressed and angry.
i spent some time rereading some entries on my blog and i just wanna do it already. find myself through running again.
i am under no delusions of trying to be what i was in my 20s. i want my 30s to feel much more awesome. because i am a different person now. in a lot of ways i feel better and stronger than i have before. but in a lot of ways i feel more beat down and weighed down.
but no more. no more. i'm doing this.
2 comments:
Congrats on signing up for the 5K!
Yes, congrats!
I'm telling you, I know where you're coming from. Having just started running in earnest this last year, it's been a struggle, and I'm 30 to 40 lbs overweight, and at 32 it just ain't coming off like it used to.
I watch shows like biggest loser, and go, "C'mon, Mel, if they can do this, you can!" Granted, they do nothing else all day, but I think, if I can just get an hour in a day, and it will make me happier? I have to try. It was affecting my relationship with my husband, because I was so sad about myself and how fat I felt (and he accepted me no matter what, so it was all me!)
Anyway, I'm working through it, and you already have a good base to get back to! You should be able to get back in no time.
Keep it up!
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